Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Only 3 weeks to go! Looking back and Moving Forward...
Thats right, I only have three more weeks in southern California and then I will be heading to Virginia Beach! I am very excited that its almost time for me to move, but part of me is stunned that it has gone by this fast. When my husband left for his deployment, it felt like this huge mountain we had to climb before we could be reunited and actually live together as husband and wife. This past year has definitely been full of surprises and a lot of hard times but now that the wait is almost over I can hardly believe it. I am so thankful that the Lord has helped get me through the past 9 months of being away from my husband, and without him I would probably still be wearing my pajamas all day, eating oreos and never leaving my bed! Which trust me, would not be a pretty sight! ;)
I can still remember the day my husband called me from his a-school in Mississippi and told me he was being deployed right away. It was like someone sucker punched me in the stomach, and in an instant all my hopes, dreams and excitement for our future together were shattered (although not permanently, thank God!). I can honestly say my heart was broken, and I don't think I have ever been more sad in my life. Not only had we been apart for over 4 months already but we were newlyweds to boot, and I wanted nothing more than to get our orders and finally live together again. We had just found out that we were being stationed in Virginia, and were getting set to move within a few weeks, when he learned of his deployment. I don't think I have ever been so angry, sad, or cried so much in one day as I did on that day. I thought it was an insurmountable obstacle, and I had no idea how I was going to get through another half a year without my husband. Don't get me wrong, I knew he would be deployed eventually, but I had no idea it would be so soon, and lets just say that I was "less than prepared" for that scenario to actually end up happening. So, I had a decision to make: move to Virginia and be completely alone for 6 months, or stay here in Cali where my friends and family would be nearby to help me get through all this.
Obviously I chose to stay here and I'm really glad I did. Now that this deployment is almost over I can finally see why the lord chose to put us through all this. There are so many good things that have come out of this deployment, and I can say in all honestly that I am a stronger person because of it. If you had told me two years ago, or even a year ago for that matter that I would have been able to go through all this and still come out a survivor, I would have never believed you. If I have learned anything from this experience it would be that God never gives you something you can't handle and most importantly that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me," which is one of my favorite verses in the bible. I have also learned that the Love my husband and I share is much stronger than I ever thought possible, and having been through this experience, I know if we put our minds to it and our faith in the Lord, we can make it through anything together. So even though this past 9 months have SUCKED horribly at times, I am glad we went through them. Now I am looking forward to our future together with a smile on my face and hope in my heart. I know there will be more hard times to come, but I know in my heart of hearts that God's plans are the best plans for my life, and this deployment has only succeeded in proving that to me.