Thursday, March 31, 2011

Whats My Song? Faithfully

This week I thought I'd choose a song that makes me smile, and reminds me of how strong our love is. 

"Highway run into the midnight sun
Wheels go round & round
Your on my mind"
"Restless Hearts sleep alone tonight
Sending all my love along the wire"
"And being apart aint easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you
Oh you stand by me
I'm Forever Yours...

I dedicate this song to my amazing husband...
I hope you know baby, I'm still yours...

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Deployment Goals

Since I'm gonna have a lot of alone time over the next year, I've decided to make a list of goals to accomplish while my husband is gone. Hopefully I can make a dent in them and keep myself busy. Here's my list:

1) Learn and perfect at least twenty new recipes. I want to be an even better cook once my husband comes home! ♥ (Not that I'll be the next Julia Child or anything...)
2) Exercise more. Since we moved into our new apartment I now have a lovely fitness center I can use to work out in! I can't wait to try out the new treadmills and blow off some steam by working out. I figure I need all the endorphins I can get over the next few months. ;)
3) Pay off all our credit cards. Between the two of us we have more credit cards than we need. Once we recuperate from this move, we are going to get those horrible things paid off! They have all been taken out of both our wallets and locked away so we wont be tempted to use them.  
4) Learn some patience and stop worrying. Last Deployment I would get very nervous and worry if I didn't hear from my husband every few days. I would start to freak out and assume the worst, and it really took a toll on my body both physically and emotionally. My hair was falling out, I couldn't sleep until almost 5 am every morning and I lost 5 pounds. I had no appetite and basically no motivation to do anything. My Mother in law would have to call me and come home to find me sitting in my pajamas at 3 pm, laying around my room feeling sorry for myself. In short, I was extremely depressed. Looking back I don't know how I pulled myself out of that dark place. If it weren't for my family, friends and of course the Lord I don't think I could have done it. I DO NOT want a repeat of that this time around.
5) I want to travel. If you've been following my blog for awhile you probably know that I love history, and I love going to new places. Virginia is chock full of amazing historical places and I want to take full advantage of that while we are stationed here. I may never get the chance to visit all these places after we leave va. I am dying to visit Washington DC and see all the beautiful cherry blossoms. I also want to visit the Smithsonian and the National Zoo. I'm hoping I can convince some friends to go with me this summer, I think it would be an amazing experience. I would also love to visit New York. Being from California, I've been to L.A. many, many times but never to New York. I just want to see the city, experience some good food and of course some NY Pizza and do a little shopping. 
6) I want to grow stronger. This lifestyle is by no means easy, and its definitely not for everyone. There are days when I feel like I just can't do it anymore. Having your entire life be controlled by the navy is not an easy thing to comprehend. I want to be stronger, not only for myself but also for my marriage. I know that when I have break downs and let everything get to me, it only puts more stress on my husband. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I will never snap and have a bad day or rant on my blog, but I'm going to try and roll with the punches. I'm gonna try harder to get back up when I get knocked down.

7) I want to come up with some amazing care package ideas. I know that when my hubby gets a package from me, it makes his day and I really wanna support him and make him smile over the next few months. :)
8) And last but definitely not least I just want to be HAPPY. I want to embrace the good things and the beauty in my life, even if my husband isn't here to share it with me. I don't want to allow our situation to consume my entire existence and bring me down. I know its gonna be hard, but we're gonna get through this! 

So that's my list...To all the MilSpouses out there currently going through a deployment, what are your goals? 


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

And the Roller Coaster begins again...

Yesterday was hard. It was the day I had to say, "Be seeing you" to my love and kiss him for the last time, (at least for a very long time). You know, even though they say it gets easier every time I can't really believe that. As we pulled up to the van to drop him off, my stomach began turning in knots and my heartbeat quickened. I knew this was it...these were our last few moments together for the rest of the year. We embraced one last time, kissed good bye and I walked back to the car as he got into the van. I watched them drive away and I headed home all alone. 

I was so proud of myself for not crying in front of him but once I was in the car, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I lost it and once the tears started it was hard to stop. I came home back to our new apartment and picked up the little messes he had left behind. His cup on the counter, a bowl on the table and some clothes he had worn the day before and left on the floor. As crazy as it sounds I wanted to just leave everything the way he had left it. I know I shouldn't feel this depressed but somehow I just can't help it. 

Thankfully today I finally got my internet, cable and home phone hooked up so I'm able to blog again and not go crazy all alone in this little apartment. As much as I hate working all the time, I'm actually looking forward to going back so it will help the time pass. I also want to look into signing up for summer classes so I can be so busy that the next year will fly by. I know we will get through this like we did the last deployment but until that day comes I will need all the support and prayers I can get...Please keep my husband in your prayers as will be greatly appreciated! :) 

As for my amazing husband, I'll miss you everyday we are apart but I'll wait for you as long as it takes. You're my everything and theres no other man I want to spend my life with. I'll love you forever!!!♥ 


Monday, March 21, 2011

Miscellany Monday

 Its Miscellany Monday, so write random and link up over at "lowercase letters."

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1) Spring is in the air! I'm loving this warmer weather and all the trees starting to blossom. Today I managed to snap a few photos of the trees around my neighborhood. 
This one is right outside my house...too bad we won't be here long enough to see it fully bloomed.
I also love this one, which is across the street from us. We don't really have these types of trees back in California, and I really enjoy seeing such beauty. :) 

2) I am patiently anxiously waiting for Friday to arrive since that is the start of my vacation and also our big moving day! ♥ I can't wait to have a few days to spend with my hubby before he leaves for a LONG, LONG time. I am very thankful that his leave chit was approved and he was able to get the time off we needed to be able to move. Otherwise I would have been s.o.l. thanks to this early deployment date.

3) I have been bummed about my job lately. I'm trying to have a better attitude but somethings that go on in that place, I just don't agree with. I've been working six days a week for 3 months straight and now that my husband is deploying MONTHS earlier than he was supposed to, I feel very cheated out of that time we should have been able to spend together. Maybe if I hadn't worked so much these last few months and been so exhausted I wouldn't feel that way...Who knows? Either way I am praying once our new tellers are trained that we will all be enjoying 2 days off a week again! But by then my hubby will be long gone and I'll have more time on my hands than I know what to do with...isn't it funny how life works out like that?

4) Last night it really hit me that Isaiah is leaving. I mean, don't get me wrong. I've known for a few weeks now that they were leaving early but last night it finally clicked. For the first time since he told me, It felt real. After spending an almost perfect weekend together and wishing we had more time, I couldn't help but feel completely empty inside. I tried my best but I couldn't help but cry. I hate when my husband sees me cry...I feel like such a stupid little girl. I know I should be stronger and I keep telling myself that we will get through this, but the truth is I'm scared. I'm afraid of what another deployment will do to us, and to our marriage. Last time it was very ROUGH and there were times when I didn't think we were gonna make it. Times when I felt like maybe I should walk away, but I just couldn't...I love him too much. I do not want to go through this all over again and so soon. :( I keep wishing that I had a pause button for our lives and I could just hold onto these last few days with him a little longer. If only....
5) I want to do something really special for my husband before he leaves, but I am completely drawing a blank. I want to give him something to remind him of home and to remind him that I'll love him forever. I need to start planning and come up with something good. Any ideas?


Boxes, Boxes and more Boxes

Remember a few weeks ago when I mentioned we were moving? 
This is what our office looks like right now...there are literally boxes piled to the ceiling. 
And we've spent the last week slowly packing up our seemed like it would be forever before we were able to move and now it has suddenly creeped up on us. We are moving in FOUR days!! 
I can't believe its almost here! :) 

I'm super excited because 1) We will be saving a ton of money by leaving military housing 
2) I won't have to worry about cleaning and decorating a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom house. 
3) I will no longer have to worry about mowing a lawn or pulling weeds
4)And I will get to use this amazing kitchen!!
Friday is the big day and I can't wait! Happy Monday Everyone! ♥ 


Sunday, March 20, 2011

Our Fabulous Weekend and Hubby's Pre-Deployment Party

This weekend has been amazing. It started a little early this week with our St. Patty's Day celebration on Thursday. After I got off work my hubby, our good friend Jimmy and myself all headed to one of our favorite local spots, a bar and grill called Salty C's.
 I looovveee this place. Its small and draws in a more local crowd. They have the best fried pickles that I've ever had! :) They also have amazing buffalo wings and a good variety of seafood as well. Needless to say it was PACKED on Thursday night and we ended up having to wait a bit for our food...but it was delicious and I finally got my fried pickles, so I was a happy girl. :) Then we headed over to our friends Megan and Brian's St. Patty's Day Party. I had to work on Friday so I couldn't drink too much, but we all had a great time anyway. 
Friday I was exhausted from working all week (and staying up so late on Thursday night) so the hubby and I decided to stay home and rent some movies. You gotta love how redbox and some Mcdonald's can be the best cheap date was magical. ;) We watched "Life As We Know It" with Josh Duhamel and Katherine Heigl. I love, love, loved this movie! It was funny, heartbreaking, and romantic all at the same time. If you haven't seen it you need to! Its definitely a good date night movie. (Even my hubby liked it...shhhh don't tell!)

I got off work Saturday and came home and watched "Wolfman" with my hubby. I was so tired from working six days in a row and barely getting any sleep, that I passed out before it was even finished. I know, I'm lame!! Lol!! But I knew I would need my rest seeing as we were going out to dinner with a bunch of friends and having a Farewell Bash for the Mr. later that night. After getting some much needed beauty sleep I got all gussied up for our fabulous dinner and party afterward.
Here's a photo I managed to snap right before we left. I wish I had gotten one of my hubby and I so you could see the rest of my dress, and how handsome he looked...but I forgot with all the excitement. We all headed down town and ended up at one of my favorite restaurants here in Va Beach...El Azteca. Its the only place I've tried out here that meets my California standards for authentic mexican food. And let me just say that their peach daiquiris are to die for! ♥

We all had a great time at dinner and the food was DELICIOUS as always! I really can't say enough how much I LOVE that place...♥ Once we had eaten to our hearts content we headed back to Megan and Brian's for Isaiah's Farewell Bash. Its a good thing that Megan is a bar tender because thanks to her I had yummy drinks all night and even managed to take a few shots. I was feeling pretty good by the end of the night! ;) Everyone had a blast and here are a few photos to give you an idea. 
We were both a little buzzed at this point...just a little. ;)
Sarah and Josh were being such goobers. They were making me laugh ALL NIGHT LONG!! I loooovveee this girl!! ♥
Here's a shot of me, Angel and Megan having a blast! And if you look closely in the left corner you can see her husband Brian making his way into the picture, lol! 
Here's our other friends Sarah and Kyle. They make the cutest couple and are probably some of the most laid back people I've ever met. :) 
There are so many other hilarious pictures, but for now I'll leave you with this one. I realized last night that I am so blessed to have met such amazing people here in Virginia Beach and that I'm going to have lots of support once Isaiah actually leaves.

Even though I had an amazing time I kept thinking about how much I'm going to miss my husband once he leaves for his deployment. I just kept trying to savor each moment, each touch and ingrain them into my memory so I will have something to smile about when he is gone. I know this is going to be a difficult journey but I am confident that we will not only make it through everything, but that our relationship will be stronger because of it. So on that note I'll say farewell and I hope you all had as great a weekend as we did! ♥



Thursday, March 17, 2011

Whats My Song? Week 4

I was listening to Pandora a few days ago when this song came on, and immediately gave me the chills. A lot has been going on in my life the past two weeks and lets just say it hasn't been easy. Its times like these when I find myself asking questions like "Lord, why is this happening to us again so soon?" and "Why don't you want us to be together, why can't we just have some time to spend with one another and be happy?" There have been moments of weakness on my part when I find myself being mad at God and thinking that he must not even listen to my prayers...

But then he always finds a way to remind me that he loves me and has a plan for my life. I know it was no accident that this song came on a few days ago. When I really stopped to listen to the words I found myself sitting there with tears in my eyes. Because no matter what struggles we face, what heartbreaks we endure or what tragedies are laid before us, he will always be there to help us overcome the obstacles in our lives. We just have to keep reminding ourselves that God's love endures forever. I hope you all enjoy this song as much as I do, and more importantly I hope it reminds those of you who feel lost or forgotten, that God isn't the type to just walk away from you. He loves you no matter what, and He ain't the leavin' kind. 

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They tried their best to drag him out
Of a courthouse down in montgomery
Now they want to kick him out of school
And take him off our money
They can take those words off of paper and stone
But he aint gone, no

He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who dont believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

She stayed mad at him for a lot of years
For taking her husband
Started losing her faith and thinking that
Her life meant nothin
But when she looks at those kids
She raised all by herself
She knows she had some help
Yeah she knows

He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

No matter what you do
No matter where you go he's
Always right there
With you

Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

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Happy St. Patty's Day!!!

 Happy St. Patrick's Day Everyone!!! :) I wish I didn't have to work today but since I am stuck inside a bank on this wonderful day, I hope you all enjoy it for me. Yesterday I went shopping with my friend Megan for some St. Patty's day decor and we spent the evening decorating her house for the get together she's hosting tomorrow night after we all get off work. This is what I picked up...
I got 2 cups (1 for me and 1 for the hunny of course!), some shamrock beads, a light up pen, a light up shamrock to wear on my shirt today and of course a fatty light up ring! I'm gonna be all decked out for work! 
 I especially love the ring! ;)
They want us all to dress up and wear green... so it's gonna  be fun to see what everyone is wearing! :) We're also having a potluck so I am looking forward to all the yummy food I'm gonna get to eat for lunch...Mmmmmm! ♥
I have always loved St. Patty's Day mostly because my Mom always made all of the holidays so much fun when we were growing up. For every Holiday she would get each one of my sisters and I a few presents and make a special dinner. Of course we would always eat corned beef and cabbage on St. Patty's Day and I still love it to this day. :) So thanks Mom for passing on some of our family traditions and helping me to learn to love Holidays as much as you always have. ♥

Unfortunately I'll be at work until 7 pm due to our monthly meeting, (why they decided to hold it on a holiday is beyond me) but after that the Mr. and I are headed to Megan's house to have a few drinks and enjoy the rest of our night. What do you all have planned for today? Do your family and friends celebrate St. Patty's Day?