Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Doctors Office Embarrassment

Sometimes I look at my life and all I can do is laugh. The things that happen to me really are amazing...I had a doctors appointment today bright & early at 8:00 am. After tossing & turning all night I woke up around 6:15 so I would have enough time to shower, eat and leave the house by 7:00. I had to drive all the way across Virginia Beach over to the Oceana Base in order to go to the Dam Neck Branch Clinic for my appointment. So I am driving there and get lost twice before I even find the street the clinic is on, then I had to phone the nurse and ask for directions cause I am obviously terrible with finding places. By the time I actually locate the building and park I am already five minutes late and have no idea where I am supposed to go.

So I head in the clinic to check in and a clerk points me in the right direction. I sat for awhile and waited to be checked in and then proceeded to go to an orientation of sorts. I'm sitting in the room waiting for the nurse to stop talking when all of a sudden it hits me. My stomach churns, and I can feel my face start to get hot. I was starving by that time since I ate around 6:00 am and desperately wanted to eat the granola bar in my purse but wasn't sure if it was alright. I sat there for ten minutes hoping the presentation would be brief until I finally couldn't take it anymore! I grabbed my purse and headed for the door without a word.

 I staggered down the hallway searching desperately for a bathroom because I knew it was coming. I was going to be sick...I passed a nurse and asked for help but before I knew it I couldn't hold it back anymore. I told her I needed a trashcan and she quickly grabbed one for me. And I just did it, right then and there. I couldn't help it. As much as I was embarrassed to be sick in front of a complete stranger, there was no way to prevent it. Some other male nurses happened to hear me from the hallway and brought me to the break room to sit down and drink some water and gingerale. My whole body was shaking and I was hot and embarrassed. They grabbed a doctor and she was so nice and quickly checked my blood pressure and heart rate and made me sit for awhile before going back to my appointment.

I basically missed the whole orientation because I was sick, but mostly I was just concerned that I still had to do blood work after all this was said and done. Lucky for me, the nurse I had was one of the ones who had helped me when I was sick and was a pro at drawing blood, so it was easy breezy. Now I am just hoping I can get better soon and not have to be sick anymore. My next appointment is in two weeks and I am hoping I can make it through that one without hurling. It really is a drag, but I guess one day it'll make for a funny story. ;)

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A bit lonely at times

Maybe it's because I have been cooped up inside my house for the last week, or maybe it's because I live 2,700 miles away from home but I have been feeling so lonely lately. I feel like I have no friends, which I know isn't true, but it just seems like everyone is just too busy for me. I stop to think about the friends I had throughout middle/high school and how close we were. We did everything together...sports, football games, parties, shopping and just had fun. I know that after high school things change and we all have to actually grow up but I guess it just makes me sad when I look back at those friendships that have disintegrated over the years.

After high school I made other friends and became really close with them, only to drift apart once we moved to Virginia and they all still live in California. Being a navy wife really can be lonely. Sometimes you feel like no one understands what you're going through. I come from a family of all girls and my sisters, my mom and my nieces are all extremely close. My husband doesn't really understand this bond because 1) He is a man and 2) His family is not very sentimental. They are close in their own way but not the way my family is. Everyone kind of just does their own thing. It's hard sometimes that he doesn't understand how much I miss them and I feel like there's a piece of me that is missing when I'm away from them.

My mother always used to say, "Be nice to your sisters, cause one day they'll be your best friends," and she was right. As I have seen so many of my friendships fade away my family has always been there no matter what. Are they perfect? HELL NO! But do I love them dearly? Of course! Looking back at so many memories of my childhood and my adult life, I just wouldn't be the same without them. I want to raise my future children to love one another and embrace family the way I was taught. I want us all to share a closeness and most of all to be close enough to my family that they can know and love my future children as well. I hope the navy makes this possible next year for us when we are supposed to pcs. Keep us in your prayers and I will try not to be so melancholy when I write. :) 

Monday, June 11, 2012

I'm alive, I promise

It has been so long since the last time I blogged, but I promise I am not dead! I took a hiatus from social networking (for the most part) and completely cut off facebook, twitter and blogger because it was all just getting to be too much. There were certain people that were driving me insane and I just needed a break from it all. After a few months I am trying to get back into the swing of things and am gonna start updating my blog more often. Recently I have been having some health issues and was unable to go home to California for our family vacation this year. :( To top it all off after that I caught a nasty cold my husband brought home and have been trying to fight it off for the last four days. Sometimes it feels like I can't catch a break but I am trying to remain positive and believe everything will work out for the best.

My poor husband has been dealing with me being sick and emotional and has been a champ at taking care of the house and cooking dinner, doing laundry etc. which I really appreciate. It is so hard to do those things when you are not feeling well! Anyway, I am on "vacation" from work until Thursday but since I have been so sick I haven't even left the house since last week. At least I don't have to worry about work for a few more days, and I am praying to be better by then so I can go in. I would love to get better a little sooner so hubby and I can have a beach day or just enjoy our time off together but I'm not holding my breath.

On a happier note, exam results came out a few weeks ago and my husband passed! I am so proud of him for becoming a petty officer and knew all his hard work would pay off. We have been through so much together since he joined the navy and it has made us both change and grow. This year has a lot of anniversaries for us, it will be five years that we have been together, three years that we have been married (In August) and three years of navy life! Its amazing how fast time flies when you're spending your life with someone you love, (and how slow it goes when you're apart!). We are still waiting to here back on the status of his PTS results, (for those that don't know PTS stands for "Perform to Serve" which is basically the navy's way of weeding out sailors and deciding who is allowed to reenlist.) It's a pretty scary thing, not knowing if you're husband will still have a job once his contract is up, especially in this horrible economy.

Since we are almost done with sea duty we are praying and hoping that his PTS gets approved so we can get the heck out of Virginia and hopefully get back on the West Coast. If all goes as planned and PTS is not a problem then we will be scheduled to leave Virginia in March of 2013 and head to our new duty station. I am so ready for a change! It has definitely been a good life experience moving across country and starting a life together, but this just isn't where we want to be. I know there are no guarantees with the navy but I am a California girl all the way and I need my sunshine and beaches! It's just not the same here in VA. I am also looking forward to a job change when we move because I am so bored and hating my work situation right now. Over all I think we are both ready to move onto the next chapter in our lives and see what God has in store for us! :)