Yesterday was hard. It was the day I had to say, "Be seeing you" to my love and kiss him for the last time, (at least for a very long time). You know, even though they say it gets easier every time I can't really believe that. As we pulled up to the van to drop him off, my stomach began turning in knots and my heartbeat quickened. I knew this was it...these were our last few moments together for the rest of the year. We embraced one last time, kissed good bye and I walked back to the car as he got into the van. I watched them drive away and I headed home all alone.
I was so proud of myself for not crying in front of him but once I was in the car, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I lost it and once the tears started it was hard to stop. I came home back to our new apartment and picked up the little messes he had left behind. His cup on the counter, a bowl on the table and some clothes he had worn the day before and left on the floor. As crazy as it sounds I wanted to just leave everything the way he had left it. I know I shouldn't feel this depressed but somehow I just can't help it.
Thankfully today I finally got my internet, cable and home phone hooked up so I'm able to blog again and not go crazy all alone in this little apartment. As much as I hate working all the time, I'm actually looking forward to going back so it will help the time pass. I also want to look into signing up for summer classes so I can be so busy that the next year will fly by. I know we will get through this like we did the last deployment but until that day comes I will need all the support and prayers I can get...Please keep my husband in your prayers as well...it will be greatly appreciated! :)
As for my amazing husband, I'll miss you everyday we are apart but I'll wait for you as long as it takes. You're my everything and theres no other man I want to spend my life with. I'll love you forever!!!♥