Thursday, July 22, 2010

It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me...

And I'm feeling good... Haha sorry I couldn't help myself with that one. I heard that Michael Buble song last night while I was listening to my playlist and packing up the last of my belongings. I stopped for a moment and realized how true this song was for my life right now. It is a new dawn, it is a new day and I am feeling pretty darn good. I was up until 2 am finishing the last of my packing and stuffing my trunk to the brim. This still doesn't even feel real to me yet. I can't seem to comprehend that in a few hours I will be leaving California and everything that I love. This place is crazy sometimes, and I'll admit that I have a love/hate relationship with the Golden State, but overall she's been good to me.
 
I am so extremely excited to start the next chapter in my life, and most of all to finally be reunited with the man I love. This deployment has been hard on us both and now that its winding down, I can hardly believe he will be in my arms soon enough! I'll admit I have been a bit down this week, and have been crying myself to sleep the past few nights...because I would be lying to myself if I said I wasn't gonna miss it here. And not just this place, but the people, the memories and good times, and mostly my family and friends. I think the hardest thing for me is going to be having to be without my sisters and my mom. I love them all so much and we have gotten so close as we have all grown up. I am glad that these past few months I have also gotten much closer to my Mom. She always reads my blog and sends me supportive and encouraging responses. So thank you Mom for all you do and all your love. It means the world to me!
 
I am definitely going to miss living three minutes away from my older sister Mel. She has been here for me through it all and spent countless lonely nights with me & a tub of popcorn or a batch of fresh brownies, indulging in our favorite tv shows. I don't think I would have made it through Isaiah's bootcamp, a-school, and now our first deployment if I didn't have you to hang out with everyday and cheer me up. I love you Mel!! And I will especially miss my lovebugs : Bailey, Keira, and Bella. My nieces light up my heart, and fill me with joy. They are the reasons I decided I want to have kids of my own someday. It breaks my heart that I won't be here to see them change and grow into beautiful young ladies.
 
Ok, I need to stop now because I am getting teary eyed as I type this. :'( So to all my friends, and especially my family : I love you more than you could ever know. I am telling myself that this isn't  "goodbye," but only "I'll be seeing you."




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9 comments:

  1. I am sure it's going to be so tough on you, but like you said, this is a whole new chapter in your life. A new experience that one day you will be able to tell your children about. More life experience you can add your book. Have a safe and fun trip!

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  2. I totally know how you feel! I'm going to miss being near my family and friends but it's exciting to start a new life and have new adventures with the person you love most. That's what I'm looking forward to! I bet you can't wait to be with him again =)

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  3. Get ready for a new adventure and drive safe...Im thinking about you and hope it all goes well : )

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  4. You are absolutely right...it's an "I'll be seeing you." You'll still be in touch with your friends and family in CA, and your heart will be touched by all the wonderful friends in the East who you have yet to meet. Safe travels!

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  5. I think we'll get along just fine! I know exactly how you feel girl, I lived in Texas my ENTIRE life then I left everything I've ever known to come here and be with my husband. It all happened extremely fast for me though we got married three months after we met and then all of a sudden I was packing up and moving to a whole new state. So if you need anything I'll be here, because I know exactly how it feels! Glad you are feeling better though.

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  6. I got something to cheer you up :)

    I have an award for you on my page
    http://addicted2shius.blogspot.com/2010/07/thursday-five-and-award.html

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  7. Awww... that was so sweet! And your right it's never good-bye but see you later. Have a great trip!

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  8. Good luck with everything girl! I'm thinking about you. And I left you an award on my page when you get a chance. :)

    HUGS.

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  9. Thank you all so much for your support and kindness!! :) It helps to have such amazing bloggy friends like you all!!

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