Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Forgive me if I sound like a scrooge, but this week is dragging and I wish it would hurry up and be over with already. I hate to say it, but I have been in a funk the past few days and I can't seem to shake it. I am stressed about work, life, my marriage, whether to move or not and being here with no support system really gets to me sometimes. Work has been a nightmare, and I can't help but be bummed about spending my first Christmas in my entire life away from my whole family. Also the fact that my hubby has duty on Christmas day has really got me down in the dumps. :( I'm gonna try to visit him on the ship but it just won't be the same as having him here and spending the day together in our home, making an amazing dinner and just enjoying our time together. Of course it isn't bad enough that he'll be deployed next year for Christmas but they have to make him have duty this year too.
Sometimes I really hate this lifestyle... I know that I am blessed that my husband has a steady job when so many others don't but its times like these when it feels like things just keep getting worse and worse that I feel like I can't handle this for much longer. I'm definitely not looking forward to the next 3 years of this bull crap! I just want this week to end so I can put Christmas out of my mind, especially since theres no need to celebrate being alone all day. I can't wait to enjoy a weekend away from the bank, and hopefully having some time to relax will help me cheer up. Customers have been extra cranky and rude all week and they are getting on my last nerve! They all swear that the whole world is out to get them and the old people are the worst!!! I thought customers in retail were rude, but banking is much worse.
So remember when you are out shopping this week, or banking for that matter... BE NICE! A little kindness goes a long way, and there's no sense in being rude and ugly to someone who is helping you, especially when the situation is out of their control. OK, now that I've gotten all that off my chest, I need some ideas for cheering myself up...were pretty broke thanks to Christmas so whatever I decide needs to be cheap, lol! Maybe a mani pedi or a lil trip to the movies with my hubby will do the trick. Either way, I need to figure something out because lately I feel like a big fat Ebeniezier!!! :[