Thursday, September 30, 2010

Sometimes My Heart Just Breaks...

 Last night my cell phone rang and the screen lit up with my older sister's photo. I started to smile cause I had been thinking about calling her all day when I was at work, and when I answered I heard my little angel's voice...my niece Bailey had called me to tell me that she had a dream about me. Apparently she misses me so much that she woke up crying and asking for me to come home and visit her.
 When I heard her tell me this, my eyes filled up with tears and my voice began to crack. I can't even imagine how it will feel once I have my own children, but my nieces are the closest things to my heart. They are my love bugs, my angels, my babies...and I LOVE them sooooo much it hurts sometimes.
 My biggest fear is that they will forget about me and all the good times we've shared, and most of all I'm afraid they'll forget how much I love them. I knew I was going to miss them, but I had no idea how hard it was going to be living so far away. I know that this is what our life consists of, and I know we gave up having any say in a lot of things in our life when my husband joined the navy...but sometimes it still gets to me. On days like yesterday when my little angel called me in tears telling me to come home, my heart just broke because I don't know how to explain to her that I can't...
 So I spent the rest of my evening in tears and feeling terribly homesick...I'm counting down the months until I get to go home and visit all the people I love...♥ Until then, I'll be seeing you angels...




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9 comments:

  1. Aww! I know the feeling! I practically co-parented my two nephews through my high school/college days, so we are really close! Usually, I end up in tears at the end of our phone convos because I fell like I'm missing out on their lives. The other day, one them told me he's saving all the money in his piggy bank so he can buy Texas so he can see me!

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  2. wow she is so stinking cute. that is just so sad too, it's so hard to explain things for children. I hope your heart is feeling better today.

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  3. Your nieces are the cutest girls I've ever seen! God has certainly blessed you with them :) I'm sorry you are homesick for them, and I pray you can go visit them soon! Hang in there girl!

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  4. Oh hun! Don't worry, they will never forgetthwir favorite aunt!! That is so precious that she called you. Maybe set up skype dates so you can video chat.

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  5. When I was living about 800 miles from my niece and nephew it was torture, you have my absolute sympathy! Maybe sending her a little care package with silly toys and some pictures and maybe even record yourself reading her a book and send the book along. That way you can "read" her a bedtime story even when you're not there. Feel better! :)

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  6. Awe I'm sorry sweetie! The hardest thing for me is being away from my nieces and nephews too. Since we can't have kids, they are our babies and it breaks my heart too but I promise, they wont forget you!

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  7. I'm so sorry hun!! I was feeling the same way yesterday and I was feeling extremely homesick but I'm sure the time will fly and you will be home again really soon and like Mrs. S said, they won't forget you!

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  8. aww... It's hard when you're not a constant in their lives. But I'm sure they won't forget because you'll keep reminding them!

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